Reevaluating an attitude

Dear Blog,

So we haven't talked since May.... Sorry about that, but as you know, I've been at work, so I hope you forgive me.

I feel like after four years, I would have learned something about FB... Looking up some people puts me in a mood. And I just have to avoid seeing them on my FB or looking them up. Well, sometimes I end up looking them up for whatever reason... And then I get in a mood. I hate that feeling.

It's worse right now because I want to see Brody (Wattson, not Slater) and I am being good and patient while Dan is in town. I hate this reevaluation thing, but what can you do? Also I'm just mad at myself for looking up Brody Slater in the first place. I just don't want to know and it's all "babe this" and "babe that." I'm a little jealous of what he has going on right now, actually.... But I would never ever admit that to him, especially when I'm still mad at him for everything that went down this spring...

It sucks to be the only single one. Two of my friends are engaged now. Two others from that group have serious boyfriends.And another with a serious boyfriend... And another, really it's just goes on like this.

And then there's me.

I just have no luck.

Right now I really like this lumberjack (you know, Brody), but I don't know what's going on with that right now, so it's very confusing... I already said I wasn't into this whole reevaluation thing, so just accept it as fact.

Anyway, I'm going crazy right now because I'm not up to anything exciting, impressive, or at all really. And I absolutely hate it. I need to get busy again for my sanity. I've started looking for jobs. It doesn't really matter as long as I'm getting paid, so... I might go against Brody's good charity to me, after all.

If only it was June, June was so exciting! I was leaving for work and my lumberjack was still bonkers over me! But that was June and I have to keep positive. Things will work out in the end; they always do.

So I need to get busy and stay positive. That's pretty much it.

And hopefully things will work out with Brody.